sometime this week my dad wrote me an email and at the end of the email he asked a simple question: "how is switching into student mode going?" i think the answer i gave him was a little more than he was looking for. let me share.
being a student is just okay. all of my classes are huge, and believe it or not sometimes i wish i were living in the dorms. obviously that isn't an option but it's so much easier to make friends in the dorms. i think i would miss jason too much though. :) so what i'm trying to say is that it's lonley up here right now. there are many times a week that i wish that i could just come home.
is it really nescessary to know how many electrons are in a atom to be a nurse? do i really need to go through 4 more years of this?
sometimes i think that it would have been easier if we would have stayed home and gone to CC or grand valley and kept a full time job.
but i really do know that if we didn't move and didn't take this leap, we would still be in GR doing the same things, and not moving forward.
i think that in everyone's lives it's a constant struggle to balance what is easier and what is good and what will reap the most benifits in the end. i feel that the biggest payoffs usually come from doing things that aren't always so "easy." and when you do something that is a little scary and not so secure, that is when you get the biggest rewards.
so when i think about wanting to be home or wanting to have friends, i think about how great it will be in the end to have a career that will benifit not only me, but my patients, and my kids, and the rest of my family. all of the good things in life come with a little risk and take a lot of courage.
so do something that takes courage today. do something scary. even if it's a little thing. they don't always have to be big acts of courage, but just think of the rewards. put a smile on your face and maybe some one else will get one too.